You are a speaker and a teacher and a healer, even from bed, especially from bed, because you are the living truth of what it’s actually like to meet chronic illness on a daily basis. You are brave. Thank you from my own bedridden weary heart today because my body is also paying some debts from the energy expended this week. Do this at whatever pace your body needs with time allowed to step away. No apologies ever. 💕
And I want to say back to you what you said to me — you're paying debts this week too, and there's no apology owed for that either. We don't talk about that part enough: that showing up to witness someone else's truth from bed costs something, and you did it anyway. That's not a small thing.
No pace but the one your body sets today. I mean that for both of us. 💛
I’ve had to write for the past 5+ years in exactly the way you speak to here…the 2am thinking over the 2pm.
I’ve always wondered how the hell you do it.
The only way I’ve seen is the one you speak to here…the one that comes at a cost. A great one.
The only way I’ve been able to navigate in the past 8 years is to start with where i am and work with what I’ve got.
As depleted and life limiting as that’s been, it’s a way in which I’ve seen year on year improvement. Alongside dark periods, relapse and monthly periods of burn out.
I no longer burn out. No more severe days.
I haven’t felt depressed since December 2022.
I can do a lot more in my days in the last 2 years than I used to be able to do in a week or a month.
But I still couldn’t travel to 5 countries in quick succession. Not if I wanted to come out the other side with anything left.
So it’s not that you’re not a speaker. It’s that you’re no longer a speaker who is willing to sacrifice his needs, his health, his life and his family all in the name of perceived success or what we’ve been told success means or should look like.
You are a speaker and a teacher and a healer, even from bed, especially from bed, because you are the living truth of what it’s actually like to meet chronic illness on a daily basis. You are brave. Thank you from my own bedridden weary heart today because my body is also paying some debts from the energy expended this week. Do this at whatever pace your body needs with time allowed to step away. No apologies ever. 💕
Kat, this landed somewhere real today. Thank you.
And I want to say back to you what you said to me — you're paying debts this week too, and there's no apology owed for that either. We don't talk about that part enough: that showing up to witness someone else's truth from bed costs something, and you did it anyway. That's not a small thing.
No pace but the one your body sets today. I mean that for both of us. 💛
I’ve had to write for the past 5+ years in exactly the way you speak to here…the 2am thinking over the 2pm.
I’ve always wondered how the hell you do it.
The only way I’ve seen is the one you speak to here…the one that comes at a cost. A great one.
The only way I’ve been able to navigate in the past 8 years is to start with where i am and work with what I’ve got.
As depleted and life limiting as that’s been, it’s a way in which I’ve seen year on year improvement. Alongside dark periods, relapse and monthly periods of burn out.
I no longer burn out. No more severe days.
I haven’t felt depressed since December 2022.
I can do a lot more in my days in the last 2 years than I used to be able to do in a week or a month.
But I still couldn’t travel to 5 countries in quick succession. Not if I wanted to come out the other side with anything left.
So it’s not that you’re not a speaker. It’s that you’re no longer a speaker who is willing to sacrifice his needs, his health, his life and his family all in the name of perceived success or what we’ve been told success means or should look like.
And that is wherein, the difference lies 🩵